Redefine is an album I needed to gain a bit of distance from and a more grounded perspective on. It was a very emotional album to conceive. It represents the first time I have genuinely tried to wrangle my emotional well-being after living in a perpetual disease state. It mainly tackles feelings of inadequacy and rage. I believe that I unpacked
Redefine is an album I needed to gain a bit of distance from and a more grounded perspective on. It was a very emotional album to conceive. It represents the first time I have genuinely tried to wrangle my emotional well-being after living in a perpetual disease state. It mainly tackles feelings of inadequacy and rage. I believe that I unpacked quite a bit on those topics in a lasting fashion for myself despite what I might recognize as a mania surrounding this record, both from the COVID-19 pandemic and from myself.
This album was going to be a very different thing at first. Something more arbitrary as I recall the feelings of scraping the bottom of the barrel for any meaning to put into words, but COVID and the time afforded to actually improve my situation saw this album becoming something else entirely. The lyrics were written nearly entirely in 2020 and 2021 while undergoing massive physical therapy for my right elbow, while the music has origins going as far back as 2013 in some cases.
When I say massive physical therapy I mean that I've been living with severe osteoarthritis as a byproduct of hemophilia since 2009, and the physical therapy likely helped me stave off a major joint replacement surgery. I can not stress enough how much of this record was inspired by the effort put forth during this time to better my physical situation and that privilege is not lost on me.
I had reconnected with Polina, who I've known for a very long time, and being a fan of her voice, I asked if she would help produce the album with me. I had originally asked her only to produce the vocals, but we shared some experiences over the fall of 2020 that saw me invite her into this as a 50/50 producer. She saw the performances while I spearheaded the mixing.
While the actual tracking and production of the album was an incredible experience, it was not always easy. This album saw me doing my best to navigate personal issues. I believe I overcompensated by going into a mania and burning out on occasions myself and others around me. It's a pill I need to remind myself to swallow whenever I think about this record if I am to further myself as a musician and meaningfully engage with those who support me and with myself. This was a hectic and emotional time, and I am forever grateful to those who had a hand in birthing this album. Each and every person over-delivered for me and I don't take that lightly.
This is a 7 song suite that runs the scope of my emotional states and savors their grandiosity. It is an album that asks you for pieces of time at a clip, but overall not a long scope of it. It endeavors to show progress in real-time and I thank you for listening, dear reader.
This album was going to be a very different thing at first. Something more arbitrary as I recall the feelings of scraping the bottom of the barrel for any meaning to put into words, but COVID and the time afforded to actually improve my situation saw this album becoming something else entirely. The lyrics were written nearly entirely in 2020 and 2021 while undergoing massive physical therapy for my right elbow, while the music has origins going as far back as 2013 in some cases.
When I say massive physical therapy I mean that I've been living with severe osteoarthritis as a byproduct of hemophilia since 2009, and the physical therapy likely helped me stave off a major joint replacement surgery. I can not stress enough how much of this record was inspired by the effort put forth during this time to better my physical situation and that privilege is not lost on me.
I had reconnected with Polina, who I've known for a very long time, and being a fan of her voice, I asked if she would help produce the album with me. I had originally asked her only to produce the vocals, but we shared some experiences over the fall of 2020 that saw me invite her into this as a 50/50 producer. She saw the performances while I spearheaded the mixing.
While the actual tracking and production of the album was an incredible experience, it was not always easy. This album saw me doing my best to navigate personal issues. I believe I overcompensated by going into a mania and burning out on occasions myself and others around me. It's a pill I need to remind myself to swallow whenever I think about this record if I am to further myself as a musician and meaningfully engage with those who support me and with myself. This was a hectic and emotional time, and I am forever grateful to those who had a hand in birthing this album. Each and every person over-delivered for me and I don't take that lightly.
This is a 7 song suite that runs the scope of my emotional states and savors their grandiosity. It is an album that asks you for pieces of time at a clip, but overall not a long scope of it. It endeavors to show progress in real-time and I thank you for listening, dear reader.
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Borderlines 5:100:00/5:10
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Stop The Madness 4:300:00/4:30
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Charades 4:500:00/4:50
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Pass 4:540:00/4:54
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Dear Anxious 3:090:00/3:09
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Bleed 3:540:00/3:54
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Redefine 5:370:00/5:37